On the plus side, I'm back on daily estrogen and I am hopeful that those suckers will kick in soon to stabilize my terrible mood swings and brain fog. I have to say, it's helping already. The doctor also gave me his official approval to run my full marathon ON SUNDAY. IN TWO DAYS.
All of the sudden, I am freaking out. What was I thinking?!? 26.2 Miles?!? Really?!? Why did that sound like such a better idea two months ago?
I do have a plan. I will run for as far as possible on my training alone. But when I am out of steam, I will run on all of the rage and frustration and sadness that has been taking over my life lately. That should get me to the finish line.
Post-marathon, I plan to focus my attention on getting into the National Institutes of Health Study on Primary Ovarian Insufficiency (the new and more politically correct way to say Premature Ovarian Failure). It's in Bethesda, Maryland and it would include three days of extensive testing to try to figure out why my ovaries are bum at age 29. Today I sent a request for medical records and a referral letter to my RE and I sent in a ton of family history and screening info to the study itself. I think I'll easily qualify and I'm hoping to get in sometime this summer.