Peed on a stick this morning. Negative.
I'm trying not to get too down about this because it's still pretty early (I'm on day 23 and I think ovulation happened on day 11 or 13. The fact that I can't tell for sure via my chart should probably be a red flag). And signs of ovulation at ALL is a huge improvement over the past five months of nothing. Plus I totally expected this cycle to be bad, because of all the running I've been doing.
But it's Hubs' 29th birthday and I had this little scene in my head of wrapping up a positive pregnancy test and giving it to him tonight for his birthday.
I'm trying not to dwell. At least I had reason to TAKE a pregnancy test. I haven't needed to POAS since... gosh, probably September?
I go back to the RE on Thursday for a check-up to see how these estrogen pills are working out for me. Here are my goals for the appointment:
1) Tell him the pills are awesome. I feel at least 75% better than I did before the estrogen.
2) Discuss current cycle and possible ovulation. Get a beta test.
3) Discuss NIH study in Baltimore. Request referral letter. If I do the study, I get all kinds of free testing that my insurance doesn't cover, which may help me get to the bottom of why the eff I have Ovarian Failure at age 29.
4) Request referral for therapist. (PS thanks to everyone who gave me advice on how to find a therapist in this post).
In other (happier) news, I ran a half marathon (13.1 miles) race this weekend and I totally ROCKED IT (for me). It was my fourth half marathon and I beat my previous record by 16 minutes (!!) and increased my speed by a minute and 15 seconds per mile. Which is CRAZY. My finishing time was 2:01:53, with an average pace of 9:18 / mile. My full marathon is in less than three weeks, but I think I'll be ready!
Thanks to everyone for the awesome ICLW comments in the past week. Having support in the blog world is amazing.