Tuesday, May 1, 2012


Peed on a stick this morning. Negative.

I'm trying not to get too down about this because it's still pretty early (I'm on day 23 and I think ovulation happened on day 11 or 13. The fact that I can't tell for sure via my chart should probably be a red flag). And signs of ovulation at ALL is a huge improvement over the past five months of nothing. Plus I totally expected this cycle to be bad, because of all the running I've been doing.

But it's Hubs' 29th birthday and I had this little scene in my head of wrapping up a positive pregnancy test and giving it to him tonight for his birthday.

I'm trying not to dwell. At least I had reason to TAKE a pregnancy test. I haven't needed to POAS since... gosh, probably September?

I go back to the RE on Thursday for a check-up to see how these estrogen pills are working out for me. Here are my goals for the appointment:

1) Tell him the pills are awesome. I feel at least 75% better than I did before the estrogen.
2) Discuss current cycle and possible ovulation. Get a beta test.
3) Discuss NIH study in Baltimore. Request referral letter. If I do the study, I get all kinds of free testing that my insurance doesn't cover, which may help me get to the bottom of why the eff I have Ovarian Failure at age 29.
4) Request referral for therapist. (PS thanks to everyone who gave me advice on how to find a therapist in this post).

In other (happier) news, I ran a half marathon (13.1 miles) race this weekend and I totally ROCKED IT (for me). It was my fourth half marathon and I beat my previous record by 16 minutes (!!) and increased my speed by a minute and 15 seconds per mile. Which is CRAZY. My finishing time was 2:01:53, with an average pace of 9:18 / mile. My full marathon is in less than three weeks, but I think I'll be ready!

Thanks to everyone for the awesome ICLW comments in the past week. Having support in the blog world is amazing.


  1. That's awesome about the marathon. I don't think I could run unless something was chasing me!

    I hope that you get some good news at the RE. That would be amazing to be a part of the study and get more testing done.

    Happy Birthday to the hubs and sorry that you had a BFN. =(

  2. Sorry about your negative test :(, but congrats about everything else! (You snuck a lot into this post!) I hope your appointment goes well, and congrats on your half marathon.

  3. That is an amazing time! I'm so impressed! And excellent list of topics to discuss with your doctor, too. I'm glad to see you being proactive!

  4. Oh Jen, sorry for the BFN :( that sucks, but like you say at least you had a reason to poas, celebrate the small victories!
    But huge congrats on the 1/2 marathon PB! Keep telling myself to sign up for a proper run but currently only manage 3k so like 1.5 miles on a treadmill!!

  5. Congrats on your PR and hope you kick butt in your full in 3 weeks!!

    Also hope you get into that study!!

  6. Congrats on the half marathon! Sorry to hear about the BFN. What do the estrogen pills do for you?

    1. The estrogen pills have cleared away all my hot flashes and the TERRIBLE brain fog I was having (I look back on November - March as "the lost months" because my brain was completely absent!).