Tuesday, August 28, 2012

The little engine that could...

Today at the doc, a new resident did the ultrasound.

Oh.

My.

God.

FIVE LONG MINUTES of poking around my bladder, twisting that wand into all kind of crazy angles, jabbing it up my vajay farther than anything should be pushed up there trying to find just ONE of my ovaries. Finally, my doc was like "Um, let me see if I can find them."  Approximately .5 seconds later, there's righty on the screen.

I don't mind residents getting some practice in with me. But I would appreciate at least some semblance of expertise when it comes to poking up my privates. You know?

Anyway, I have a follicle! Call my right ovary "the little engine that could," cause it is trying super hard to make something happen. Good job, little gal! My RE told me today he "continues to be impressed" with me, because women with bum ovaries due to POF do not typically produce follicles. At least, hardly ever.

E2 levels: 78
Progesterone: .6
Lining: 9 mm
Follicle: 12 mm

It's not exactly promising. But if that little follie can stick around and cook for a few days, maybe grow to a nice 18 - 20 mm, Doc says we can do an IUI!!

I'm trying to temper my expectations, because well, we're all a little too familiar with the sting of disappointment after riding high on hope. Hubs thinks I'm being a downer. I think I'm being realistic. Chances are this follie won't be the one. My new post-therapy self will be okay if it isn't.

I go back to the doc on Thursday to see what kind of growth we get. Grow, follie, grow!




18 comments:

  1. Squeee! I'll be overly excited for you then. :) And yes, I HATE it when residents are doing the ultrasound. One did my last one when there was no heartbeat. She dug and dug and dug. Not fun times.

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    1. Ugh, I can't even imagine.

      She was MUCH better today, but she did completely pass over the ovary and the doc had to tell her where it was. But there was definitely less digging, which I appreciated.

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  2. Super exciting! Congrats! Out of curiosity, are you taking any supplements to improve egg health/ovarian reserve? I ask not because I have some idea in my back pocket, but because I want to know if they exist and what they are!

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    1. I keep meaning to write a post on supplements but haven't gotten around to it - yes. I am on all sorts of stuff. I take daily wheatgrass tablets, a prenatal, kelp, DHEA 2x a day, calcium 2x a day, fish oil, evening primrose oil (until ovulation, should it ever happen), and of course daily estrogen (1 mg)... that's in the morning. At night I also take a melatonin and inisotol. Who knows if any of it makes a difference, but it's nice to feel like I'm DOING something, you know?

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  3. I am EXCITED. This could be THE. EGG.

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  4. That is great news! Grow follie grow!!! FX that your next ultrasound will a) be performed by someone else and b) will give show a beautiful big follicle. Good luck!

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  5. yay!! At least after all of that, there is something there. I hate when the residents do the u/s. I agree that they need to practice, but at least be gentle. But, the last time I had one done, it was the RE herself who did it - I thought she was trying to check my stomach and esophagus from the other end thanks to the way she was shoving it around. In the end she couldn't find one of my ovaries (which has always been easy to find). You would think that they'd find an easier way to check stuff out... GOing out on a limb here, but if men had to have this done as often as we do, I bet they'd find a quicker, easier way. lol

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    1. Yikes - she must have had that thing WAY up there! I know when I walked into that examination room, I didn't have the slightest urge to pee, but after my bladder was attacked from 17 angles, I had to stop on the way out to go!

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  6. sending you lots of big fat follie dust across the Atlantic! :)

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  7. Rooting for your little follie all the way! "I think I can I know I can..."

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  8. Ouch! I was wincing as I read about your ultrasound. *kicks the resident*

    That's great about your follicle! You go ahead and be as realistic as you need to be about it (I understand, believe me), but I hope you don't mind if I get excited about it. :) Go, righty, go!

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  9. Yay for that one strong follicle! I totally understand the need for realism vs. having high hopes. Boy have I been there. It's a fine line on which to balance.

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  10. I'm praying for great news for you for tomorrow! Grow grow grow!

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  11. Hi! I just linked over to your blog from Stupid Stork's Secret Sunday. I too am 29, have been a "good girl" my whole life, have been dealt the shitty hand of IF and have never tried marijuana. I've been considering trying it for awhile, just to say that I've done it...I think you've inspired me! Here's hoping for a good strong follicle! You just never know!

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    1. So great to meet another 29 year old marijuana virgin! :) Anyone I've told has been like "WTF? you've NEVER tried it?!?" From one good girl to another - I recommend it. But only if you know where it came from and you're with people you love and trust!

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    2. I'll let you know if I go through with it! A girl I work with has decided that it is her "obligation" to get me to try it before my IVF cycle starts but we'll see if it happens!

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  12. I hope this is the one for you! So, so exciting!

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