I'm freaking out! I have a serious, unprecedented case of brain fog lately that has culminated with me completely forgetting about and missing a "meet and greet" lunch at work with the PRESIDENT OF MY COMPANY today.
I feel like a huge idiot. This is not like me at all. I pride myself in being very kick-ass at what I do. I'm on it. I multi-task. I'm quick, efficient, and I produce quality results.
Until the past few months. I don't know if this is physiologically related to POF or if this is all wrapped up in my emotional response, but I have been forgetful. I've been uber distracted. Absent-minded. I've been floating around as if I'm not really present in any given moment. I'm there, but I'm not really THERE. Does that make any sense? It's like several hours will go by, at work or even while doing something fun like having dinner with my family, and afterwards I won't really fully remember the experience. My brain just isn't all there.
And I have had little "spells" of stupidity in the past, but not like this. Not to this extent and not to this duration. I'm a frickin' mess. Something absolutely has to change. I'm so frustrated with my situation and now myself - I've felt like completely losing it today at work. And it doesn't help that someone with a tiny newborn baby has been parked outside my office for the better part of the day.
The only glimmer of hope is that my doctor told me yesterday he is working with a woman in a similar situation as me - high FSH, lower AMH than me - who was in intermittent POF, and he just got to tell her she is pregnant a few days ago! Through the same treatment I'm on now, with the Letrozole and what not. My ultrasound didn't go great though; follicles are still very tiny.
In other news, that period I mentioned a few days ago in this post? Welcome to Day 10 of that delightful little visitor. Granted, the past three days have just been spotting, but I'm counting it. Ten days of bleeding. Fun.
Please tell me I'm not crazy with this brain fog. Has this happened to anyone else? Am I getting premature Alzheimer's now, too???