Thursday, October 25, 2012

Being Pregnant: How Did This Happen?


Thanks everyone for all the support for my total shocker of a BFP yesterday! It appears that the IUI on September 4 (a full seven weeks ago!) actually worked. Tomorrow at the ultrasound I’ll find out if things are going well – we should be able to see a heartbeat and measure to see how far along I am, but the doctor said that if we go by the IUI, I am nine weeks pregnant. I’m guessing I’ll measure somewhere in the eight week mark because there has to be a reason I got a negative pregnancy test two weeks after the IUI –whether it was a late ovulation or implantation or what. Right?

The period I got on 9/22 can be explained by the fact that I stopped taking progesterone pills when I got my BFN, so the bleeding was withdrawal bleeding from that… I remember having one fleeting thought that it was a pretty light and easy period for having what seemed to be like a pretty good, thick lining. But honestly, I didn’t think twice about it. When I peed on a stick yesterday morning, I knew it would be negative. The only reason I even thought to do it is that I was complaining to a friend about the nausea and how completely and utterly exhausted I’ve been and she said “if I didn’t know any better, it sounds like you’re pregnant!” We laughed it off, both knowing that it wasn’t possible. But a positive test!  WHAT?!? I still can't believe it. 

I feel TERRIBLE now for all the crap I’ve been putting this little fetus through. Because five weeks ago, negative pregnancy test in hand, I proceeded to live on the edge until yesterday. I’ve been boozing pretty hard, pretty regularly. I went to Mexico and drank the water (and beer) with reckless abandon. I’ve been drinking tons of caffeine, eating blue cheese and cream cheese and lunch meat and everything you’re not allowed to have while pregnant. I’ve been regularly taking DHEA, Evening Primrose Oil, Estrogen tablets, etc. I just got my hair highlighted on Tuesday (it still smells like chemicals).  I freaken’ skydived, for crying out loud! All… while… pregnant… holy moly I am hoping and praying that I didn’t do any permanent damage. No mom-of-the-year awards over here. Good lord.

So I go in for an ultrasound tomorrow morning. A BFP is obviously good news, especially with a beta of 34,000, but the true test will be in the sac tomorrow. I’m obviously nervous and freaking out. But my “symptoms” are holding strong. Boobs still sore and enlarged. Nausea actually getting worse. I'm still super tired. I’m assuming these are all good signs? 

I’ll try to post as soon as I can tomorrow and let you all know how it goes. My appointment is at 9 am. I would say I’m not sure how I’ll possibly get any sleep, but luckily I’m exhausted and will probably fall asleep by 9:30 tonight. GAH!

23 comments:

  1. Isn't it crazy? Life, that is. If your little bud lasted through all of that with an astounding beta of 34,000, well, I think you have a winner. And, you can tell your kid that they went skydiving before they were even born. Again, congrats!

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  2. I think baby is probably doing just fine, considering your awesome beta number. Just think of the stories you'll have to tell him/her about the first weeks of your pregnancy!

    Sending you lots and lots of good thoughts for tomorrow. :)

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  3. Sure sounds like pregnancy symptoms to me! Hoping for good news on Friday!

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  4. T'will be fine, enjoy enjoy enjoy! So happy for you.

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  5. Ahhhh! This is so crazy! I was trying to calculate when this could possibly have happened last night by hunting through your posts. 9 weeks! that's CRAZY! While I would normally tear someone apart for drinking and living it up, pleaasseee don't beat yourself up over this. You had a negative test in hand. We ALL go a little crazy indulging in whatever it is that we limit during the 2ww. Hang in there! And good luck tomorrow!

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  6. New follower here, and I just wanted to say congraulations!! That is awesome news and so crazy how things work out sometimes. The beta is a fantastic number so good luck at your appointment tomorrow and seeing the little babe, watching the flicker of a heartbeat, and maybe even getting to hear it! Yay!!

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  7. While the placenta is forming the gets most of its nutrients from the yolk sac and very little if any from the mom. I believe the placenta is functioning at 10 weeks. So you should be okay. I hope you are able to worry less and enjoy more.

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  8. Good luck tomorrow! I'll be thinking of you! (Also, after I had my first u/s I met with a NP who told me not to worry about all those food rules, and while I did anyway at first, I've totally relaxed and break the rules all the time.)

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  9. That baby is going to be a badass after what you've done so far! Don't worry about the boozing and the trip to the salon. Just think of all the women that do much worse their entire pregnancy and nothing goes wrong at all!

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  10. You've got quite the story to tell. I am so totally completely happy for you. Shit, because of your story, I will be peeing on sticks for an extra 2 weeks after my period.

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  11. Seriously, you are going to have the coolest baby ever and an amazing story to tell him/her one day! I am not sure if you have ever tortured yourself and watched "I Didn't Know I was Pregnant" on TLC (I hate to admit that I have...hangs head). Those ladies go 8-9 months not knowing and do all sorts of crazy stuff and have perfectly healthy 8 lb babies. Your symptoms sound strong! Wishing you the best for your appointment tomorrow morning! Good luck!

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  12. Congratulations! Holy shit... Just when you think you won't have one of those 'whoops I'm pregnant' stories - and BAM. You basically have one. ;)

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  13. Oh my goodness! Congratulations! Don't worry about all of the living you've done the last few weeks. If you didn't get sick, I'm sure baby is fine!

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  14. Definitely good signs! And you can't blame yourself for all the big things you've done in the last month. The most important thing is that, once you knew this baby existed, you stopped. That definitely makes you Mother of the Year! Congrats!!

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  15. WOW! Congratulations! Stopping in here from ICLW although I know I've read your blog before. That is awesome news about your pregnancy. Hoping that you have a great ultrasound tomorrow!

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  16. I wouldn't stress about all you've eaten/drank/done before you knew - I am sure it will be fine! :)

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  17. Congratulations! I'm sure that everything is okay in there :). The one benefit to this surprise is that you're almost at the end of your first trimester and you haven't had to sit around stressed about it!

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  18. Woah! Congratulations! I loved "the true test will be in the sac tomorrow" - no double-meanings there : ) but it made me giggle.

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  19. OH MY GOODNESS!!! I Just read all your past 3 posts and can't believe it!! I am oh soooo happy for you!! Please, please, please keep us updated!!!

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  20. I'm still just so thrilled about your news! I've read and re-read your last two posts and got all excited telling my hubby that someone i have been routing for got a surprise miracle... Like us, but even more amazingly!

    Do not worry about your last few weeks of living it up! I absolutely cannot wait to hear how it goes tomorrow! Record that heartbeat, if you can ( you'll love listening to it whenever you feel like it:) And what about two or three heartbeats!?! With that beta #, seems possible ... especially after an IUI. I'll be checking in all day tomorrow! :) Hugs!

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  21. I fully believe you have a super baby in there!! Funnily the first thing I thought when I saw your beta was 'she so sky-dived whilst preggers!' hahaha brilliant!!!

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  22. This has me smiling from ear to ear and laughing out loud (seriously!). Your little babe shouldn't have any effects from all of the things you've been consuming/doing...he/she is still pretty independent in there at this point :) Lots of women don't even know until they are further along and haven't made changes to habit/diet even at this point! Yay!

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  23. That is so crazy that you had a BFN two weeks after your IUI and now you are about 9 weeks pregnant! That is one brave sky-diving baby! I think you will have a trouble maker on your hands. ;)

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