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The chart mystery continues. After my post a few days about about my tanking temperatures, they came back up to 97.2 and are hanging around there for now.
BUT. Guess what happened. I have been having some super kick-ass cervical mucus for the past couple of days. The kind I haven't seen since NOVEMBER, which is the last time I ovulated. I won't know for sure until I see a temperature spike (OPKs don't work for me - they always say I'm ovulating even when I'm definitely not), but I am extremely encouraged that perhaps my little bum ovaries have decided to join the living this month! Right when I have hopped off the gluten-free bandwagon and started running obscenely long distances. Go figure.
Here's the chart:
Thoughts? What the hell is happening in my body? The good cervical mucus appeared on the day the temp spiked (so three days ago). That was only Day 10, which seems pretty early, but maybe I am confused because my cycles have been so effing long since getting off the pill (like 36 to 65 days each, mostly annovulatory). I had good stuff yesterday too but today not so much.
Gah, I shouldn't be obsessing about this. I've all but given up on TTC before my full marathon on May 20. I have just been assuming that running 40+ miles a week isn't exactly conducive to getting me knocked up and so I've given myself permission to stop worrying about it until the marathon. And it feels really awesome, not beating myself up about infertility every day. But then this daggone chart with my super cervical mucus comes along... hmm. It's been enough to get my hopes up, which is irritating because I know what happens when a seemingly promising cycle ends with Aunt Flo. And it involves me sobbing in the shower. And let's face it, this cycle is 95% likely to end in the same way.
Where do you draw the line between thinking "maybe, just maybe, this one is THE one?" and maintaining some modicum of rationality that will temper the optimism and prepare the psyche for disappointment?