Monday, December 10, 2012

12 Weeks

I can't believe it. We've arrived at the elusive "12 week" mark in this pregnancy. Today officially is 12 weeks, 3 days and I still have to pinch myself to make sure this isn't a dream.

We've told all our family and most of our friends. I told my students (I work at a college) last week and they are fascinated, spending several hours each day suggesting names, asking questions, and staring at my (very small) "bump". We haven't yet spread the news to facebook and I'm not sure we'll do that, ever. I plan on keeping my promises from this entry, posted just one week before I actually got pregnant. I am not a born-again fertile.

If we post anything on fb, the announcement will be accompanied with a "coming out of infertility closet" statement. Half of me thinks "that's nobody's f*cking business" and the other half doesn't want to contribute to this culture of infertility as a taboo subject. So that's where I am with that.

My "symptoms" are waning, big time. I've kicked the nausea almost completely. Food aversions are mostly gone (hello chocolate and Mexican food! I didn't even know I missed you until now). I'm still tired and my boobs can't be contained, but I am feeling pretty good. My dreams are CUH-RAZY. And super intense. There was that one where Champ had been plotting my murder since before we got married; that dream ended with him chasing me down the street with a knife in his hand. Then one a couple night ago during which I was babysitting my niece and a series of random events culminated with me taking a bite out of a live earthworm. Then the one where I was drunk and trying to explain to a co-worker how to properly taste wine. "Mary. There are five steps, and each of the steps starts with 'M'. Step one. Mint. Does it taste minty? <<erupt into giggles>> Maybe they don't all start with 'M'." I also dreamt that I named my baby girl "Phillipa." I woke up in a panic.

I'm enjoying the crazy dreams. I'm trying to write them down so I don't forget them all. In fact, I'm keeping a journal to document all of my regular happenings while pregnant, which might explain why I've been so bad about posting on here. I've started "bump" pictures a few weeks ago, but I don't think I'm going to post them on here. Ya'll see enough of that IRL I'm sure!

UPDATE: Also - I turned down the job. It felt too risky to make such a big change when I feel comfortable and safe and supported in my current job. The benefits, too, were waaaaay worse at that new job. I'm actually feeling a little more appreciative of my career in higher education after seeing how expensive insurance is in the private sector!


  1. That sounds like a good facebook plan, my love.. I think saying something is great if you put it within the context of "hey I had to work for this... bitches". It will be a brave, brave but AWESOME thing.

  2. These dreams sound awesome… I love the journal idea. Later you can show your little one and have more to share than I really wanted pickles or ice cream or pickles in ice cream. : ) Congrats on 12 weeks! So exciting!

  3. Congrats on hitting the 12 week mark! I have been having CRAZY dreams myself lately, but it's not because of pregnancy!

    I bet once you come out on FB you will have friends tell stories of their infertility journey.

  4. Oh, I just love this post! It makes me smile - especially all your crazy dreams. I'm SO excited you are at and beyond 12 weeks! Outstanding!
    I think FB is tricky stuff. I haven't "come out of the infertility closet" on it yet either, but I believe it would be good for everyone when I finally do. I'm hoping it will be with a positive baby announcement as well.
    Oh yeah, and the dream journal sounds like a good time. I've never thought about writing them down. That's brilliant!

  5. Welcome to the lovely second trimester! I'm just leaving it, and already missing it;) The dreams can be crazy, and i love that you are recording them! I had one the other night where the hubs was kicking me over and over again in the tummy for no reason (very distressing)... Til I woke up and realized it was the baby going to town in there:)
    I think it sounds like you made the right decision on the job front. There will be other opportunities later on, I bet, when a career move makes more sense.
    Still so excited for you! Take care!

  6. Whooo HOOOOOO for 12 weeks!! I had a really strong baby dream the other night and I remembered your dream about the little boy on the beach, and I hoped it was a premonition for you. This is your little boy Jen and it is wonderful!

  7. 12 weeks already gosh I feel like it is flying! When we made our facebook announcement I put up a thing that after struggling with infertility we are excited to announce that we had one coming in January. But I have limited baby talk on facebook since. It just isn't me I guess. Now after she gets here though I will be putting pictures on there because of family mainly but I WON'T be going overboard like some people do.

  8. Love this post. I've been having lots of crazy dreams too! And congratulations on hitting 12 weeks! I was so relieved to get to that point myself.
    My hubby and I announced our news on FB over the weekend. I had originally intended to say something about struggling with IF, but I have been so sick that when it finally came time to post about it, all my wits had left me. We ended up with something basic like "We are excited to announce our family will be growing this spring!" and accompanied it with some u/s photos.

  9. Congrats on the big milestone! I'm so very happy for you!

  10. Congratulations on 12 weeks! That's huge!